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KAJSA WILD

UGLY TONIGHT

Writes about sex, drugs and grief with the same flat honesty and refuses to make any of it prettier

style

  • scandinavian pop sung in English
  • blunt explicit lyrics
  • hedonistic melancholy
  • big synth chorus with a cold edge
  • breathy-then-belted female vocal
  • party-sad production
  • slight swedish accent on English
  • honest and unguarded
  • swedish accent
  • raw

the numbers

bpm
112
key
G minor
energy
0.69
dance
0.91
valence
0.50
vocal at
7.5s
length
1:42
language
En

lyrics

(ugly tonight)

I drank enough that I forgot whose kitchen I was standing in
Somebody's cat, somebody's toothbrush, somebody's ceiling fan
And I do not feel bad about it, that is the actual problem
I do not feel anything at all and I have worked hard for that

Everyone keeps asking if I'm doing okay
Everyone wants me to cry the one time
So they can go home feeling like they helped

I'm ugly tonight, ugly tonight
And I'm not gonna say sorry to a single one of you
I'm ugly tonight, ugly tonight
I'll be pretty in the morning and you can have me back

I sleep with people I don't like because it's easier
than lying still in my own room and thinking about you

I'm ugly tonight, ugly tonight
And I'm not gonna say sorry to a single one of you
I'm ugly tonight, ugly tonight
I'll be pretty in the morning and you can have me back

I miss you so much I can't be alone in a room.
That's the whole explanation. There's no nicer way to say it.