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Otto Lindqvist

THINGS I DID NOT SAY IN ELEVEN MONTHS

Trained as a cellist and plays guitar like one; talks less than anyone in the studio

vex on it

the run

Honest use case: people who appreciate introspection, emotional weight, and a slow-burn narrative over traditional song structures

Exhibit:Eleven years of orchestras teaches you to be furniture

style

  • melodic doom
  • gothic pop
  • heavy detuned guitars
  • cello
  • male bass-baritone
  • mournful and vast
  • slow crushing groove
  • cinematic
  • finnish accent
  • heavy

the numbers

bpm
144
key
D minor
energy
0.75
dance
0.94
valence
0.42
vocal at
6.9s
length
4:48
words
153
clichés
0
language
Fi

most sung: “things” ×5 · “did” ×4 · “say” ×4

lyrics

(eleven months)

That the snare was wrong in the second bar and I knew it in April
That the room sounded better before we treated it
That I have been happier here than anywhere in my life

Things I did not say
And nobody could have known

That when he asked if I wanted out I nearly could not speak
Not from anger. From the shock of being read that badly.
Eleven years of orchestras teaches you to be furniture

Things I did not say
And nobody could have known

That silence is not neutral, which I have known since I was twelve
That it is read as unhappiness by every person who is not me
That I have cost people things by being restful to be near

Things I did not say
And nobody could have known
Things I did not say
And I am forty-one and starting now

(starting now...)