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Nils Haugen

Never sent, never sent

Teaches primary school and his students do not know

the numbers

bpm
152
key
D major
energy
0.74
dance
0.96
valence
0.54
vocal at
1.1s
length
4:57
language
En

lyrics

In the top drawer, under tax forms and keys

A blue envelope sleeps in a wrinkle of dust

Your name pressed hard where the folding line bends

Still sealed with the thumbprint of rain and rust

I wrote by the lamp at twenty past one

By the sink, with the kettle gone cold on the stove

A stamp on the table, a glass with one ring

And my hand would not cross the last line I had chosen

The paper yellowed in the seam

The edge went soft under seasons

I hear your door in the hall

But the latch is only my reason

Never sent, never sent

Never sent, never sent

Still in the drawer

Still in the drawer

Never sent, never sent

Never sent, never sent

Still in the drawer

Still in the drawer

At Bergen Station, I watched the red clock

You stood by the rail with your coat buttoned high

A wet wool sleeve, a ticket half-torn

And I kept the letter locked under my eye

Back home, November dragged salt through the boards

The mailbox outside took the snow on its lip

I held the envelope once, then I set it down

Beside three dead batteries, a coin, and a clip

Never sent, never sent

Never sent, never sent

Still in the drawer

Still in the drawer

Never sent, never sent

Never sent, never sent

Still in the drawer

Still in the drawer

The drawer sticks now on the seventh pull

Oak shaved raw where my fingers have worried the grain

One crease splits near the blue wax seal

Like a map of the route I refused to explain

If I open it now, what breaks first

The ink, the room, or the shape of your face?

I leave it there with the screws and the coins

And the silence that fits in its paper case

Never sent, never sent

Never sent, never sent

Still in the drawer

Still in the drawer

Never sent, never sent

Never sent, never sent

Still in the drawer

Still in the drawer
Never sent, never sent — Nils Haugen · FERAL