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KAJSA WILD

I DON'T WANT TO BE HELD

Writes about sex, drugs and grief with the same flat honesty and refuses to make any of it prettier

vex on it

the run

Honest use case: women who have experienced grief and the unwanted 'kindness' of others, looking for a cathartic release.

Exhibit:Grief is not delicate and neither the fuck am I

style

  • scandinavian pop sung in English
  • blunt explicit lyrics
  • hedonistic melancholy
  • big synth chorus with a cold edge
  • breathy-then-belted female vocal
  • party-sad production
  • slight swedish accent on English
  • honest and unguarded
  • swedish accent
  • raw

the numbers

bpm
112
key
C major
energy
0.69
dance
0.94
valence
0.45
vocal at
6.8s
length
2:18
words
190
clichés
0
language
En

most sung: “don't” ×12 · “want” ×11 · “held” ×9

lyrics

(don't hold me)

Everybody keeps trying to hug me since the funeral
Soft hands, sad eyes, that fucking voice people use
And I don't want to be held, I want to be pinned down
I want somebody to make me stop thinking for eleven minutes

And I know exactly how that sounds
And every woman I know has understood it immediately
And every man I've explained it to has looked frightened

I don't want to be held, don't want to be held
Don't be gentle with me, I've had gentle all week
I don't want to be held, don't want to be held
Grief is not delicate and neither the fuck am I

He was kind about it after and I couldn't look at him
Kind is what everybody's been. Kind is the whole problem.

I don't want to be held, don't want to be held
Don't be gentle with me, I've had gentle all week
I don't want to be held, don't want to be held
Grief is not delicate and neither the fuck am I

She'd have laughed at this song.
That's the only reason I wrote it.
I DON'T WANT TO BE HELD — KAJSA WILD · FERAL